That dreaded fear. It holds us back from trying new things. It stops us from doing things. It's debilitating. FEAR - of failure. What if I fail and it doesn't work out? FEAR - of success. What if I succeed and I don't know what to do? FEAR - of the unknown. For me, that's the scariest of them all. The unknown? What? Who wants to deal with not feeling secure in our choices? That sucks.
Some days we have confidence, some days we don't. Same thing goes with courage. It's not like we find courage and confidence and we're good to go. We will lose it from time to time...and that's ok. Life ebbs and flows. I'm sure you know all about having those ups and downs. Sometimes we have an illusion that once we find C&C, that we will always have it. FUCK NO!!! That's not how life works.